Right now I'm constantly aware of the power of time.
I'm on the edge of drastic changes in my life- all coming right at once
Needless to say, when people ask me how I am, how things are going, etc., I'm kind of at a loss for words. Wouldn't you? Wouldn't anyone? How do I necessarily describe what it feels in the calm before some sort of whirlwind? Especially when the "calm" is really the last few months of my senior year at a crazy difficult college that isn't calm at all...
I'm on the edge of drastic changes in my life- all coming right at once
1->I'm graduating college and leaving the rigid academic structure that I've known for most of my life.
2->I'm getting married and leaving the single life which I've known my entire life despite been in serious relationships for a decent part of it by societies definitions (I suppose?)
3->I'm moving to a city and leaving the culture of life I've ever known.
And... again, these will all happen in the course of 2-3 weeks. Wow.
Needless to say, when people ask me how I am, how things are going, etc., I'm kind of at a loss for words. Wouldn't you? Wouldn't anyone? How do I necessarily describe what it feels in the calm before some sort of whirlwind? Especially when the "calm" is really the last few months of my senior year at a crazy difficult college that isn't calm at all...
I'm bracing myself for change, and I'm very excited. I'm also very scared. Putting the balance into feelings, words, or actions just seems impossible.
My options then remain to go about every day as I know I... should? and do as much as I can. But the certainty of each day is this: thankfulness.
So what am I thankful for?
-right now... spell check.
-late starting mornings when I'm up till 3:30 writing
-friends- not just acquaintances. People who are willing to be a friend even when they see me for who I am.
-my siblings who've allowed me to adopt them into my life and have done likewise
-my amazing fiance, who not only puts up with me but is excited to share the rest of our lives together as a grand adventure as best friends :)
-rain
-free laundry.
-God's forgiveness- someone who sees my every sin and flaw and doesn't turn me away or worse is still and will be- the most amazing thing ever.
-long walks
-freedom
-my church. I'd be nowhere without it.
-being able to sing
-having lots of different job experiences
-Spring break next week- going to go see my Mom in Colorado is going to be amazing and so, so necessary!
-whiskey on the rocks: slowly sipped, contemplatively
-salsa
-shotgun class
-people who bother to actually get to know someone
-stuffed animals
-my car, and the chance to make long road trips or just go driving
-nail polish
-restraint. I'm thankful that I'm not a slave to my desires, because then I'd end in ruin.
I really like that list, Hannah. I cannot imagine how overwhelming it must be to contemplate all the coming changes. Just graduating from HD and leaving was totally overwhelming for me. But it really sounds like God has some exciting plans for you. I love your attitude towards all that is coming up.
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